My greatest dream is realized! 😆
I got a very big big news to make... I am pregnant!! 😂
I am revealing this early though despite the (after the 3 month) confirmation.
I have been waiting and wondering when this day will ever come but God has a plan. I simply had to wait and be patient.
Amos & I are thrilled beyond words and although we have been talking about getting getting a baby but we didn't know it would be this time. I thought we could try next year but who knows, God has a plan for us!
But it was only until I saw the sonogram that it only confirm my fears and surprised us. I am actually going through a period of grieve as my popo just passed away. Just when I know this news, but she didn't have the chance to see my child or even know she has become a grand-grandma for me. I feel so sad and is like a new life is given while another life is taken away. I hope she will be able to bless my child from above.
I missed my period for two months and I though is the usual hormone imbalance or stress as I just started a new job. I had ever missed for months before and went to drink herbal drinks for it to come. But then, I had spotting everyday for two weeks. I was annoyed about it and decided to see the polyclinic to solve the problem.
So we went to Yishun Polyclinic near our house and the waited an hour before we saw the doctor. I gave my urine sample and tested for pregnancy which may be one of the symptoms. The first thing the doctor said to me was... Can you GUESS?
"Congrats." Your urine test shows positive and above 25...". I am like "Are you sure? It may be my hormones... "
Then he told me to go KK women hospital asap emergency to test and scan to confirm it as it may be a sign of miscarriage.
Amos and I then went down to KK WOMEN Hospital and I had my urine tested again.
By that time, I was anxious, nervous and Amos could feel it too. I said a short prayer of if its thy's will help me to have a healthy baby. And true enough, the female doctor said its positive and there are two lines. I am like ok, lets' scan and see what you can find.
I went into the next room and they insert something into me and i was so nervous. I was like is it done already?
And the doctor finally showed me the small tiny dot in my womb and true enough there was a baby growing in me! 👶I finally believed and was in utter happiness and shock.
Amos saw the picture but he did not teared, he was like ohhh... ok. Maybe he was expecting it? haha...😏
I was like hoping he would cry like in those videos of hubs crying tears of joy when they heard the news of their wives got pregnant. well well..
I am lucky I don't suffer from those horrible morning sickness many women experieces. maybe not yet.. So I am just trying to think positive and trying to eat properly everyday. Nothing in particular but more healthy food and less junkfood, icecream...etc..
That's all I can say for now as I go on this baby journey for now & I hope to experience wonderful things, learn new things, update more about my experiences, the pain and joy, the ups and downs and the wonderful gift God has given us so dearly.
We thank God for this precious gift and all I hope now is that it will be a normal, healthy and good child as it comes into this complicated world. Whether if it is a boy or girl, I will love him or her and do my best as a mother. 💪
I do want a boy but Amos wants a girl. As I come from a all daugthers' family and he comes from a all sons' family.
I am still new in this motherhood journey as it's my first. I hope you all can share with me your tips & stories!
Pray for me as I go through this first nerve-wreaking one. I am so grateful, excited, nervous, eager, scared & overwhelmed with emotions. But it's the best bundle of feelings I have ever felt in my life!💓💓
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!