Saturday, December 30, 2017

New Year Goals^^

Happy New Year! あけましておめでとうございます。
How's everyone doing this 2018? 
Have you made your new year resolutions?
2017 has been a eventful year so this year would be focus on my work and baby.

Things I learnt this 2017-
1. Life goes on, it doesn't stop
2. Time heals
3. Some friends come and go
4.Preparation is important
5. Dreams do come true, if you believe and take action
6. Everyone has fears
7. Money speak louder than words
8.Be patient is easier said than done

Things to work on in 2018-
1. Save more Spend less
2. Prepare to be a mother for my 2018 Baby!
3. Eat healthy well
4. Be positive everyday
5. Exercise at least once a week
6. Pray more
7. Spend quality time with family
8. Never stop learning!

Hope you will also make better goals and achieve them in 2018!

Friday, December 22, 2017

We are having a baby! Here comes the BABY bump!

Hello Everybody!✋

My greatest dream is realized! 😆

I got a very big big news to make... I am pregnant!! 😂

I am revealing this early though despite the (after the 3 month) confirmation.
I have been waiting and wondering when this day will ever come but God has a plan. I simply had to wait and be patient. 
Amos & I are thrilled beyond words and although we have been talking about getting getting a baby but we didn't know it would be this time. I thought we could try next year but who knows, God has a plan for us! 

But it was only until I saw the sonogram that it only confirm my fears and surprised us. I am actually going through a period of grieve as my popo just passed away. Just when I know this news, but she didn't have the chance to see my child or even know she has become a grand-grandma for me. I feel so sad and is like a new life is given while another life is taken away. I hope she will be able to bless my child from above.

I missed my period for two months and I though is the usual hormone imbalance or stress as I just started a new job. I had ever missed for months before and went to drink herbal drinks for it to come. But then, I had spotting everyday for two weeks. I was annoyed about it and decided to see the polyclinic to solve the problem. 

So we went to Yishun Polyclinic near our house and the waited an hour before we saw the doctor. I gave my urine sample and tested for pregnancy which may be one of the symptoms. The first thing the doctor said to me was... Can you GUESS? 
"Congrats." Your urine test shows positive and above 25...". I am like   "Are you sure? It may be my hormones... "
Then he told me to go KK women hospital asap emergency to test and scan to confirm it as it may be a sign of miscarriage.

Amos and I then went down to KK WOMEN Hospital and I had my urine tested again. 

By that time, I was anxious, nervous and Amos could feel it too. I said a short prayer of if its thy's will help me to have a healthy baby. And true enough, the female doctor said its positive and there are two lines. I am like ok, lets' scan and see what you can find. 
I went into the next room and they insert something into me and i was so nervous. I was like is it done already?
And the doctor finally showed me the small tiny dot in my womb and true enough there was a baby growing in me! 👶I finally believed and was in utter happiness and shock. 
Amos saw the picture but he did not teared, he was like ohhh... ok. Maybe he was expecting it? haha...😏
I was like hoping he would cry like in those videos of hubs crying tears of joy when they heard the news of their wives got pregnant. well well..

I am lucky I don't suffer from those horrible morning sickness many women experieces. maybe not yet.. So I am just trying to think positive and trying to eat properly everyday. Nothing in particular but more healthy food and less junkfood, icecream...etc..

That's all I can say for now as I go on this baby journey for now & I hope to experience wonderful things, learn new things, update more about my experiences, the pain and joy, the ups and downs and the wonderful gift God has given us so dearly. 

We thank God for this precious gift and all I hope now is that it will be a normal, healthy and good child as it comes into this complicated world. Whether if it is a boy or girl, I will love him or her and do my best as a mother. 💪

I do want a boy but Amos wants a girl. As I come from a all daugthers' family and he comes from a all sons' family.

I am still new in this motherhood journey as it's my first. I hope you all can share with me your tips & stories!

Pray for me as I go through this first nerve-wreaking one. I am so grateful, excited, nervous, eager, scared & overwhelmed with emotions. But it's the best bundle of feelings I have ever felt in my life!💓💓


Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

Sunday, December 17, 2017

A tribute to my grandmother


My grandmother passed away on 13 December 2017. 

My Popo is a very special person. She is the best grandma you could ask for. My story goes back to when I was a baby she took care mainly of me for one year as my elder sis is just a year older than me so my mum had two too close to take care. I am sure she fed me well because I was so chubby then.

I still remember she would carry me to take a crawling picture at the studio. Once I was fighting with my elder sis and she hit me so we started hitting Each other back. My Popo saw it and tried to intervene. She put her hand on my sis and hit her own hand like she’s hitting her instead. Then she said ok ok see.. I hit her already to stop us from fighting.
This shows she rather hit herself than see us hitting each other.
That action stayed in my mind until today. 
I remembered staying with her for a few years in Pasir Ris when I was a grown adult. Everyday life was simple for her. She loves fish head and would cook it with beehoon and bitter gourd every night for dinner. Such a simple person who eats so simple. 
When I come home from work and laze on the sofa for an hour she would scold me and say:”Ppl is shower first thing when they come home but u will laze there so smelly.. quickly go bath.”
I would often get awake by the jiggling sound of her jade and gold bracelet. Her usual cup of coffee in the morning with bread. 
She would do my laundry and fold my dry clothes when she has time in the evening. 
Almost every noon, she would invite her majong friends to play majong at her house. She could sit there for hours not getting tired at all. And she was the oldest among them. At the end of the day, I often ask if she won or lost. Many a times she would say I make some. But when she lost, she would say sometimes u win, sometimes u lose. It’s alright.
I can’t forget all her have done for me because her actions showed me she really cared.

She don’t expect much but always tell me to work no matter how low the pay it may be or whatever it is. She would say:”I want to work but I am so old useless, nobody want to hire me. “
It instills in me a never say die attitude and to work hard in whatever I do. As long I work hard I will succeed. 
She loves me a lot and I can tell from her actions of kissing me and telling me to be a good girl. I would buy for her her favorite durian ice cream those cheap $2 cut type and she would be so happy and put there to melt a while before she eats.
She always help others and never demand anything for herself. When my sis and I were studying in the states she so gladly helped us with part of our school fees. That’s why we could later on graduate and be where we are today.
I know Popo aged a lot in recent years and I know her time is not long. My dream was to get married while she’s still ard and witness. So last year I got married and she got to witness the whole thing. I am so glad she got to see Amos, talk to him and accept him. 

I know you will see us in heaven and I can’t wait to see u again. I love u and will miss u dearly. Thank you for all your love, your help and most of all your example of being such a humble yet generous woman. Your legacy will be passed on. I hope you will be peaceful and happy in the other world. 

I often tell her my worries or secrets but now I will have someone less to share my woes and praise my achievements.
To cheer me in this road called life.
To kiss me whenever I am there.
To cook delicious home cooked meals.
To nag and scold me for the sake of my good.
To always tell me to be a good girl.
To Kiss my pooh bear 😍
To be a peacemaker at home

And finally to love and accept me for who I am.

If I could be just half as great of what she is would be good enough. Her strength for the whole family can be seen through her giving and love. I don’t have her anymore but even though she’s gone!. She will always be there in my heart.
Popo you have done your part and I know you are a saint now. All the good deeds you have done won’t be forgotten. Thank you. Please go to rest now and I will see you in eternity.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

US Trip Sister's wedding!

Sorry, Its been a while.. . Been six years since I went back to the states.

My elder sis got married! 💖👫
And so the preparations started more than half a year ago...
I would like to keep this post short and sweet so just the highlights of the month's trip. 

First highlight 💗 was stoping over in Japan, my favorite place on earth. Even though it was a stop over but it was a enjoying thought to know I went there and got to see the place again. Just being there makes me feel good. I don't know why...

Got to sit Japan airlines with my parents, and I realized a good thing to travel with them is I can have a shoulder to lie on when I sleep... lol
The thing about traveling with older folks is to be patient, given their walking time is already slower than mine. 

Second highlight was of course my birthday.😆 I got to spend it overseas coincidentally again this year. Maybe not meant to spend in Singapore lol. I got to be treated by My sis and her husband to a very special meal at the Korean BBQ place and it was such a satisfying dinner with my family. We got a simple cake at this Asian bakery and actually if u go there u will be amazed how much Asian food and things they have there! More than before!

Third highlight was definitely the Wedding! It was as busy as it was and as a sister I tried to help in whatever way I can. We went to the flower market and saw the flowers and changed certain things. And it's nice to be planning a wedding again. The day came and everything went by fast! Their wedding started late afternoon and it was held outside beside the ocean. I can tell u the main thing was the cold wind and all I could remember was shivering and freezing there with just a sleeveless gown. We couldn't even wear a jacket or something! I could see Rita the girl in front shaking from the cold wind and I had to endure from not laughing! Lol😂

I think in US culture is different in the way they had it outdoors and the dance. They danced their first dance to beauty & the beast and kudos for dancing all right Chie! She was all jittery about it. And everyone I think had a blast, laughing at the speeches we gave and I lost my speech in my phone as I had my phone changed. But nonetheless, glad to catch up with everyone and those I didn't see for a long long time. My sis' gown was a Disney designed gown and really suit her. 👩

Look at my unrelectant face to dance~

The Team: Bridemaids & Best men!!

Flower girl & Ring boy

Fourth highlight was going to Palm Springs mountain. It was another surreal time I had in nature and snow. As we don't experience it here in South east Asia, its nice to experience something different. 
On the way up to Las Vegas, we stopped by there and took a long cable car ride up to the top which is freaking like 30 storeys high! We walked to the forest trail and just being in nature that place makes me sane for a moment.😊 I touched the snow and even had a taste of it! lol I wished we had such places. 

Oh and I lost $20US dollars this time at the casino at casears palace. My sis said I should have played at Paris hotel where I won last time. 

Fifth highlight was yea the food. Well I cannot compare but it was special in ways that u don't get it here. The vegan burger is something I had when I was in school and I missed that. So I had to have it when I am back this time. And the Mongolian noodles in their food court was good something special that even here I don't get to eat. Their usual orange chicken and stir fry are something u should not take for granted. Their BBQ meat was also fabulous good and Mexican beans. Another one I should remember is one of the last places called tender greens we went and they served organic healthy food. So good must try! Their albacore sandwich is a must try and roasted potatoes. 😛

Sixth highlight is something I gained from the trip. In fact, I try not to tear in the airport when my sis sent us off. I saw her eyes turning red and I said I won't cry. But minutes later when she left, I was crying like a baby. While waiting in queue to go up the plane, I suddenly was filled with emotions and sadness. I don't know when I would see her again. This time was so precious, it was something I wouldn't trade for. We had our fights and big quarrels but nothing could stop us from loving each other. True blood ties never break and I realized the bond we had, the love we had and how much we want each other to be better. No matter what I love my sis as she's my real sis who helped me grow into a much better person. 
She was the one who encouraged me to go back to school again and that's why I finished my degree. She has her weaknesses so do I but we learn that although we walk different paths, we are still family. 
 I hope one day I can also be like her in some ways and we can reunite soon again. 💋

Happy Birthday Chie! I wish you good health and love in all you do. Success and Wealth in life! 💜

Memories are the best things in life, I think. -Romy Schneider